You Move Me

This week coincidence (or God, perhaps?) brought a song to my memory that I hadn't thought of in YEARS. Like, since junior high. I downloaded it onto I-tunes on my new lappy and had a good listen and then a good cry. It was exactly what I so badly needed to hear right now in the midst of dealing with the following:

1) A new pregnancy
2) My hubby and I living apart for 6 weeks
3) My hubby's new job
4) Quitting my job
5) Leaving my home of nearly 9 years
6) Praying for our house to sell
7) Moving toward only one smaller income
(Are your freak out hormones raging like mine yet?)
8) Changing churches
9)Making new friends
10) Finding a new, affordable, decent home to live in
11) Being a psycho already even when things are sane in my life
12) Going from full time time career mommy to a very part time SAHM
13) Mother of one in diapers to mother of two in diapers

As you can see, I am struggling a bit. But as I listened to this song, there was a line that stuck out:

"I can't go with you
And stay where I am
So you move me "

The biggest blessings in my life have come out of obedience to God. I met Ryland after God asked me to break it off with a boy. I received a scholarship to UCO because I felt like God was leading me away from some others areas in high school and focusing me on leadership. I had Isaac after being obedient to God's call to trust him to build my family. God is at work and is moving all around in my life right now. Because He loves me He gives me a choice. I can stay in my safe little house, with my safe little job, and my safe little income. Or I can go with Him. After examining the last years of my life how can I come to any other conclusion. Going with Hiom is scary, its risky, and like therapy - there are truly no guarantees. But God has proven over and over that there are so many blessings waiting if I am obedient and I go with Him. So as he whistles in the dark and illuminates all the mysteries yet to be seen, I am choosing to follow with my heart- laughing all the way, even though there may be a few anxious tears in my eyes at the time.

If you actually go to my blog page, you can hear the song. If not, here are the lyrics.

You Move Me- Susan Ashton

This is how it seems to me
Life is only therapy
Real expensiveAnd no guarantee
So I lie here on the couch
With my heart hanging out
Frozen solid with fear
Like a rock in the ground

Oh but you move me
You give me courage
I didn't Know I had
You move me on
I can't go with you
And stay where I am
So you move me

Here is how love was to me
I could look and not see
Going through the emotions
Not knowin' what they mean
And it scared me so much
That I just wouldn't budge
I might have stayed there forever
If not for your touch

Oh but you move me
Out of myself and into the fire
You move me
Now I'm burning with love
And with hope and desire
How you move me

You go whistling in the dark
Making light of it
Making light of it
And I follow with my heart
Laughing all the way

Oh 'cause you move me
You get me dancing and youmake me sing
You move me
Now I'm taking delight
In every little thing
How you move me

Please keep me in your prayers during this season of change.

Happy note: We find out the sex of baby Russell #2 on May 22. Results will be posted here. Stay tuned!

Moving,
Mindy